Thinking back at the time of my Sacred Heart Yoga teacher training in Bali… The hardest part of it was certainly finding time for myself and self-reflection. Especially when you are going on that journey with 24 other people, carrying their own stories.
As many people, I like to be there for others. Which is not a bad thing at all. But when it keeps me away from my own journey, from my own shadows, it becomes a way of running away. I had been running away for a very long time.
When I decided to take that flight to Bali, I not only decided to give myself some time. I decided to look deeper inside.
Of course, I was very scared of what I would find in there. The discovery dive that I did at my arrival on the island – before the training – certainly helped me to deal with my fears of depth and to see how beautiful it is down there. With all the shadows and bright colors. Accepting myself as I am. Loving both my dark and bright sides. Yin and yang. Realising that there was nothing to be scared of, nothing to be ashamed of. I learned about my femininity. I learned about my intimacy. I learned how to love myself.
In a very natural way, I started to appreciate more and more the time that I spent by myself. The more I love myself, the more I want to spend time with the person whom I will stay my whole life with: me. That was the first thing that our teacher told us at the beginning of the training: “Wanting to support people and to connect with others is nice, but don’t forget that at the end of the training, the person whom you will stay with your entire life is YOU.”
When I look at the situation in the world right now, I can’t help but think about what I have learned back there. When everything slows down, when every distraction from our very essence fades away, it is time to look inside, at the shadows. It is time to let go of everything that is not needed anymore and to become lighter. It is time to forget the fears of what could be and to enjoy what is there. It is time to live. In peace and silence.